Restless.

At the end of my time in China, I was very sad to leave, but getting a little excited to go back to the US. I felt ready to see my family and friends, wash my clothes and dry them in a real dryer, have a bowl of cereal with real milk, etc. etc. I had a sneaking suspicion, however, that after a week of being at home, I'd be ready to pack up my things and go back to China.

I was right. It's been about a week since my return home, and the excitement has just about worn off. No offense, America... and no offense, family and friends, but I really, really miss my babies and my New Day family. If I had it my way, I'd be on a plane back to China and would come back and visit home again in another 6 months.

I guess that is one thing I am still learning... that there are seasons for everything and when your time is up you just have to move forward... for now, anyway. I hope I'm able to spend another season of my life in China some day.

Comments

[kevin]

We will miss you when we get back to ND and you are not there, it won't be the same. I like this pic of you and Timothy.

[tiffany]

Yes, seasons for everything. However, I am not a bit surprised at how you miss it. I bet you are missed as well.

[TanyaLea]

I'm certain they miss you just the same! I can only imagine how torn my heart would be if I had spent 6 mos there... it was hard enough to leave after a matter of days. China and NewDay in particular, will always have a piece of my heart. I wish I had taken the opportunity to serve like you did back when I was younger and single. I'm just grateful that our daughter got to be in such an amazing place until we were able to bring her home... and that I was able to experience NewDay if only for a few days. We were all very blessed.

Praying for you Jess, that God will light the next path you should follow and that this aching in your heart in comforted by His grace. I know you long to be back. I've heard the same thing from other interns who spent any length of time there... the longing only seems to grow the longer you are away. I have a suspicion that you'll be back one day... but whenever it is... I just look forward to seeing what God has in store for the next season of your life.

I enjoyed those photos of your 'going away party' on the NewDay website. LOVED the one of you and Shaun!! ... I'd blow that one up and frame it if I were you...too cute of BOTH of you!

God bless,
~Tanya

[Rosemary E]

HI Jess, we can understand just a little of what you must be feeling.....we did too and we were only there for a couple of weeks! God does show us the way, wait upon Him and in His perfect timing He will show you what's next.....bless youx

[em-ly]

i'm still stalking your blog... but now i get to see you too! (don't worry, i don't stalk you in person, just virtually. sometimes.)

thanks again for your sharing this weekend! i was praising God for you and your experiences, and also for the workers and children at ND. and i'd love to see your going away pics -- please remember to send me a link! ;)

<3, em-ly

[em-ly]

thanks for bringing a bit of china to us. =)

[carrie]

we miss you too, jess. i understand feeling torn and unsettled and a little unmoored - like you belong somewhere in the ocean between here and there. i promise that He is always good and that He brings all the pieces together.